den_chan: credit to: garnet_graphics (@ LJ) (8D)
2022-08-21 11:42 am
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Muselist

under construction!
den_chan: credit to: gothrockrulz (@ LJ) (Discontent)
2014-02-04 01:32 pm
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Echoed Mistakes

At the beginning of the year I made the resolution that I was going to start making choices based on what I wanted to do. You might think oh, that's easy, but it's not for someone who has grown up as a people pleaser. I found it hard to choose something purely based on my own likes or dislikes because there was always the chance that doing so would upset someone else.

Recently I've taken this resolution a little further and I've decided I'm going to tell people what I'm thinking or how I'm feeling. That's considerably harder than the first resolution but recently I've been voicing my true feelings rather than replying with the canned response of I'm fine. Articulating these feelings isn't something I find easy and it usually makes the situation about a hundred times more difficult. Reactions to this behaviour have ranged from delight to upset to plain annoyance.

I feel that those who I can be truly honest and open with should feel privileged that I give them enough trust with my emotions for them to know them but that isn't always the case. The way I look at it, people can know me and how I feel and accept that or they can walk out of my life. I'm a strong individual and I don't really need support from anyone. That's not me saying I don't want friends, I do, I like the companionship; the good times, the fun times, but I cannot balance by heart on people who may be secretly thinking negative things about me.

So, in a way, this is a little like a disclosure. If people don't like the way I'm developing as a person they don't have to. I respect that. Just be aware that I don't want to be a walk over anymore.

den_chan: credit to: garnet_graphics (@ LJ) (8D)
2014-01-08 01:00 pm
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Original Characters [to be completed]


Gabriel
sweetie vampire


Calchas
cannibal vampire seer


Samael
bitchface angel
den_chan: credit to: thefloralia (@ LJ) (Chirpy)
2013-11-21 11:22 pm

My D&D Character

Took this awesome quiz and here is my result:

I Am A: Neutral Good Elf Bard (5th Level)


Ability Scores:

Strength-11

Dexterity-14

Constitution-10

Intelligence-13

Wisdom-15

Charisma-17


Alignment:
Neutral Good A neutral good character does the best that a good person can do. He is devoted to helping others. He works with kings and magistrates but does not feel beholden to them. Neutral good is the best alignment you can be because it means doing what is good without bias for or against order. However, neutral good can be a dangerous alignment when it advances mediocrity by limiting the actions of the truly capable.


Race:
Elves are known for their poetry, song, and magical arts, but when danger threatens they show great skill with weapons and strategy. Elves can live to be over 700 years old and, by human standards, are slow to make friends and enemies, and even slower to forget them. Elves are slim and stand 4.5 to 5.5 feet tall. They have no facial or body hair, prefer comfortable clothes, and possess unearthly grace. Many others races find them hauntingly beautiful.


Class:
Bards often serve as negotiators, messengers, scouts, and spies. They love to accompany heroes (and villains) to witness heroic (or villainous) deeds firsthand, since a bard who can tell a story from personal experience earns renown among his fellows. A bard casts arcane spells without any advance preparation, much like a sorcerer. Bards also share some specialized skills with rogues, and their knowledge of item lore is nearly unmatched. A high Charisma score allows a bard to cast high-level spells.


Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

den_chan: credit to: thefloralia (@ LJ) (Decisions!)
2013-11-11 05:25 pm
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What Would You Choose?

 

If I had to choose two?

It'd have to be intelligence as my first choice and good looking for the second.

I don't particularly feel that "emotionally stable" is something people can really achieve. They say that some of the most brilliant people had to battle with a variety of mental illnesses because they knew things about the world that others didn't. Moreover, I feel like my emotional instability is a strange part of my personality. Without those issues would I still be me?

But perhaps that's the sort of attitude that stops me from healing?
den_chan: credit to: rainaccel (@ LJ) (What Could've Been)
2013-11-10 04:51 pm
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Come and Go

As I look through photographs, new and old, I see people who have come and gone during the course of my life. People who I was once so close to I barely speak to anymore and those who I never thought would be such an integral part of my life are now at the centre of it.

I don't feel any negative emotions towards those who have come and gone, I suppose it's a little sad that I can no longer see and speak to these people with the same ease, but I feel like this is a natural progression. How many people come into our lives and then leave it for one reason or another, do these people stay with us? Touching our lives and changing us forever or are they just voices that we hear for a short time before they disappear completely from our thoughts?

Personally I'd like to think that once we get to know someone they stay with us, their "voice" lingers.

I'm not the easiest of people to get close to, I have my own unique set of problems and issues but I wish I could tell those who've tried to be friends with me that I'm thankful and happy that they tried, even if the connection was brief. I wish them all the best and I hope that they will be happy now and forever.
den_chan: credit to: elasticon (@ LJ) (derp)
2013-07-12 10:47 pm
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den_chan: credit to: thefloralia (@ LJ) (Decisions!)
2013-07-07 06:44 pm
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New Hair!

Hello all, just a quick, epic video to show off my new hair colour!


den_chan: credit to: thefloralia (@ LJ) (Chirpy)
2013-07-02 07:17 pm
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Dealing with Negative Emotions

As I've grown up I've heard a lot of people saying things like "I'm so jealous of your figure" or "I'm so jealous of your skin" or even things like "I'm so jealous of your relationship with your parents".

Okay, I think these sort of feelings / sentiments should really be nipped in the bud as soon as possible. Jealousy is not a positive emotion, being proud of someone for achieving something or feeling inspired by others is definitely positive, but we are far too eager to admit our jealous feelings as if doing so is some sort of compliment.

It's not.

Being genuinely jealous of someone means that you feel envy for something they have or can do and those sort of negative feelings will eventually result in more negativity. Those negative actions may not be pushed upon the person who brought about these jealous feelings but either way those feelings will result in spreading more negativity, one way or another.

I want to make it really clear that I'm not judging other people, mainly because I myself used to feel a lot of jealousy. I was jealous of people for all sorts of reasons, usually they were pretty superficial, or even worse, things that I could easily change about myself but didn't feel the motivation to change.

So I'm trying very hard now to have a more positive outlook towards other people. If someone looks better than me then I notice it and say "you're beautiful" and I do not envy it, because they're not me. I can't expect to look or even be like someone else, it's not possible, we're all unique. When I see someone who can speak Japanese more fluently than me, or who can draw better than me, I let them inspire me to work harder.

I'm not out to impress anyone but myself and I think that's how it should be.

I guess my closing statement is that you can't let yourself envy other people because it only ends up in you feeling bad about yourself and there's no reason for you to.

You're amazing - that's it.
den_chan: credit to: epic_colours (@ LJ) (Little Smile)
2012-09-12 10:08 pm

Final Fantasy VII Let's Play Project

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So I finally caved and bought Final Fantasy VII for the PC. I'm planning on doing a "Let's Play" on my youtube account so people can watch me play the game. Being my most favouritest game ever I'm likely to do a lot of squealing and shouting. Should be fun! :D

den_chan: credit to: thefloralia (@ LJ) (Chirpy)
2012-09-01 09:33 pm
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Trip to London

This week I've been so busy with the new Italian students that I've basically had no time to myself! Not that that's a bad thing, in fact, this group of students are incredibly nice and I really enjoy teaching them. They may be some of the friendliest students I've ever come across, constantly smiling or laughing (sometimes even singing)!

Today we went on a day trip to London and although setting my alarm for 6:55am was a bit painful when we got into London we had a really lovely time. We did a walking tour of the sights and then they went on a trip around the London Eye. I'll see them again on Monday morning and I hope they can tell me exactly what they enjoyed about the trip!


 

den_chan: credit to: rainaccel (@ LJ) (What Could've Been)
2012-08-22 04:56 pm
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den_chan: credit to: rainaccel (@ LJ) (What Could've Been)
2012-08-21 01:12 pm
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Musebox!

So I made a musebox in the hopes that I'll be able to vent some of my creativity in there :D only problem is that I only have two people I regularly role play with! Ho hum! I'd like to join another large rpg but I'm not entirely sure where I'd fit in! Any recommendations?
den_chan: credit to: epic_colours (@ LJ) (Prayer)
2012-08-20 09:14 pm

Home Improvement!

Well, I'm finally beginning to feel a little bit better. I'm definitely not 100% but I'm not constantly coughing, I'm just coughing every other sentence! Huzzah! This is a big success for me! :D

I do feel terrible for having to take so much time off work but I thought about it earlier today, I've not really had much of a holiday/time off in the past two years. Before this teaching job I was on the CELTA course and before that I was working at Spicers and then before that I was job hunting in Japan. So things haven't been terribly easy for me the past few years, I suppose it all just builds up over time and when I got this cold it quickly became a much more serious chest infection.

Anyway! To try and distract myself from my sickness I'm going to post some pictures I found on photobucket of one of my favourite OTPs... Aerith and Tseng from Final Fantasy VII!


Aerith in this picture says: "Ya~n! Cuute!!"

Here Aerith is saying "Cuute!"

Tseng is saying: "it can't be helped..."
And Aerith replies with: "Wai~!"




I think this happens after the picture above! x)
 
All of these pictures were found by doing a search on photobucket, sorry! I don't know who any of the artists are!

den_chan: credit to: epic_colours (@ LJ) (Epic threesome)
2012-08-17 09:09 pm
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Six Little Things I Want to Change

Recently I've been thinking about things I want to change/develop in me. Diaries or journals are so great for plotting out ideas or lists. Some of the things in my list will be small, seemingly insignificant things, others will require a lot more time and attention.
  • Save money: this is so that I can start a Masters in Linguistics, I know that languages are definitely my territory so I want to focus on learning more about them and the theory that goes with them.
  • Change body shape: last year I managed to lose about 1.5 stone (roughly 21 pounds) but recently I've been slacking off, eating bad things and not exercising. I want to find some sport of hobby that I can take up to help me lose weight. I've been considering swimming or maybe dancing?
  • Change body image: I really want to continue to grow my hair (whilst resisting the urge to dye it pretty colours) and I've been giving serious thought into getting my tattoo removed (with a laser procedure).
  • Take JLPT level 2: this is a Japanese language proficiency exam that I've been studying for in private lessons for some time, I'm wondering whether I'll be ready to take it this December or if I should wait for next summer holidays.
  • Cut down on needless purchases: I have a really awful habit of buying things because I feel like I need them. It's usually make-up or shoes but I'm trying to curb my impulse buying! I'm making small lists of things I really want or need and saving up for them instead!
  • Be creative: I want to keep writing and maybe, when I feel strong enough, take up another creative outlet. Whether it's drama, playing an instrument or life drawing I want to develop my creative skills and continue make things!
Only six things, not that many really, but if I can look back at this entry in a year's time and say that I've achieved some of them then I'll be really happy!
den_chan: credit to: gothrockrulz (@ LJ) (Discontent)
2012-08-16 09:12 pm
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Continued Illness

Well, for the past few days I've been off work because my horrible cough has turned out to not be a cold (as I suspected) but a chest infection. :'( I've been taking penicillin for the past three days now and although I feel a little bit better I'm definitely not back to 100%! So I'm here, feeling pretty sorry for myself (as you can imagine)!

I was laying on my bed after dinner and I just fell asleep! That's so unlike me! I never nap!

Hum, I have tomorrow and the weekend to recover, I really hope I'll be alright by Monday. I hate letting work down!
den_chan: credit to: thefloralia (@ LJ) (Chirpy)
2012-08-12 02:40 pm
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Chester Trip

So earlier this week (Tue. 7 to Thurs. 9 Aug.) I went with my mum and dad to Chester (in the north of England). I had a really lovely time and I'm going to post a load of photo spam about it right now!

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Lots of these are photos are of the Chester Cathedral which was absolutely stunning. My favourite shot is probably the garden with the water fountain/statue. It was a really lovely city and I'd like to go there again soon!
den_chan: credit to: rainaccel (@ LJ) (What Could've Been)
2012-08-11 08:20 pm
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Lazy Saturday

Today I've taken it very easy, trying to recover from my horrible cold/cough thing. The cough has been going on for over a week now and it's really starting to pull me down. I can cope with it all right in the day-time but it's when I'm trying to sleep that it really gets to me. Over the past few days I think I've only had about 7 hours sleep in total. I've got big bags under my eyes and I'm really worried about going to work on Monday, I hope I'll be well enough.

Anyway! This morning I got up late and made some rather delicious falafel with Nick. They were good, I formed them into these perfect little discs of yum before he fried them. I would've taken some pictures but most of them were eaten! Whoops!

Then this afternoon I chilled out on the PC and did a little writing and a little shopping. I made some naughty purchases!


This is the dress I bought!


And the matching bra and underwear!

They were quite expensive altogether but I couldn't resist! I've not bought any new clothes in such a long time and these were so adorable!

Now I'm going to try and relax, take my cough syrup and heal up (I hope)!
den_chan: credit to: glimpse-a (@ LJ) (Hugs)
2012-08-10 01:28 pm
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First Entry!

So this is my first entry in my new, personal blog. It's been some time since I've sat down and typed anything about myself and it's a little nostalgic to be doing so!

My life has changed so much over the past few years, I have a fiancé, a full-time job teaching and I feel more at ease with myself than ever. Whether I'll actually type anything worth reading in here I don't know but I do find the act of writing (or typing!) about daily events to be quite soothing. It's a nice way for me to organise my thoughts neatly - and I'm all for organisation!

The majority of my entries will probably be public but anything that I consider upsetting or just a little too personal I'll make private. I don't imagine that a lot of people will read this journal but just in case someone does come across it I wouldn't want to offend them with something I've written.

Thank you to everyone who reads and supports me and I hope to relay some interesting anecdotes and photographs in the future!

xXx